Ramblings of a deranged mind

Subject:	My history
Time:	10:59 pm.
Mood:	blank.

My Everlasting struggle.
When we lived in Florida my great-grandmother lived down the street from us.She was a sweet old lady but that changed.I soon took up gymnastics when I was 4.After practice-after school-I would go to her house.She would tell me how fat I was and how I would never make it.I was a very small child.That I will admit.At age 6-I was still in gymnastics-It occured to me that I wouldn't make it and I was fat just as my great-grandmother said.I watched the older girls stick their fingers down their throat and they were skinny.I thought if I did the same I would stay small.I started doing it too.I was 6.My mom found out and tried to steer away from it.Somehow she got me to stop when we moved.We came here when I was 7.I was accepted into a group of popular rich girls.It stopped when I hit fourth grade.Everything changed.I became fat.I ate away my pain.I was constantly picked on by the other boys in girls from fourth grade to eighth.It was horrible.People would call me things I don't even want to say because it would only cause emotional pain,well more then i'm in now.So around this time 2 years ago I became anorexic.I hid it well.My mother only started noticing when I came home from Florida this summer.She took me to the doctor and found I had lost around 45 pounds.I played a role of a sweet child who was living the perfect life.They don't even know.They still don't know.I still play my role.And it's still working.But now life is out of control.
[Stats]
CH:5'10
CW:138.7
GW:Weightless

Anja

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